Sunday, April 27, 2008

loving life

Well, I must say, mommyhood is way, way better than I expected. Way more fun, way easier (so far) and yet more intense at the same time. I love being a mother to this little baby boy. Cohen and I thank God a lot, especially while he is eating, for his mommy, his daddy, his first mom who chose life for him, for his son who saves our wretched souls, for his beautiful nose, eyes, ears, mouth, sweet cheeks, hands and feet! I was thinking tonight as Cohen was staring up at me while taking his bottle about all the people who comment on how alert he has been and is for his age. Now, they might just be saying that, but he really does seem to not be missing much that goes on! It's almost as if he knows he has been given life, that although abortion was not necessarily even a thought for E, she still chose life over the alternative. So, for example, when planned pregnancies or pregnancies within marriage or within relationships occur, people are generally excited and have high hopes and dreams of the little being growing inside them. But for E, as much as I can imagine, this was obviously not planned and came as quite a surprise, causing fear in her of what was to come, I am sure. I know she had to be thinking of every possible way to make this situation better, easier, smaller than it was in reality. I am kinda rambling, but my point is that as I sit holding him I just can't help but pretty frequently think of how he came to us...about how he could've been aborted, his life taken from him before it even started. It sends chills through my body and makes me so thankful to God and so sure of His love for each soul at conception. He has plans for Cohen and Cohen is a gift to us, a blessing, one that we don't deserve but by His grace and mercy will enjoy for as long as He allows. I really really love adoption. I will say again how perfectly it mirrors what Christ did for us, giving us a new life with a purpose!!! God will do great things in and through Cohen, I just know it. It is my priviledge to pray for him and guide him into adulthood. Do biological parents feel this way too?

Yesterday was my first day back to work...longest 12 hours of my life! It wasn't so bad though since I knew he was in awesome hands! Eric had him all day long and they had such a good time together. I am only working one day per week, so I can't really complain, but it was hard to leave his sweet little self that morning!!! They came to eat lunch with me, so that was fun, but harder to go back after lunch! We had a great, really full weekend of family birthday parties and family dinner. Cohen is so blessed by God to have SO many family members who are almost as in love as we are with him! Tonight, I fed him 5 ounces for the first time! He has been pretty consistently sleeping 6-7 hrs at night which from what I hear is pretty awesome for an infant and so I am really thankful for that! We had another couple of showers last weekend and got some really great and much needed things. People continue in their generosity! He seems to be a lot bigger, growing like crazy. I need to get some good pics of him on here so you can all see how different he looks from the first week! I'll get right on that!


alicia said...

I am so very happy for you! Such a beautiful post. God defiantly is taking care of your family!

Anonymous said...

Mandy, being a parent is just that...being a parent. Biological or not, a loving parent will have that God given desire to pray and want the best for their children. Even for parents who dont enter their childrens lives until later in life (Tim)!! I just know that when you are giving your children over to God through prayer, He gives you a love for them that can not be matched.
Isn't it awesome to see how you can experience a love like nothing you have ever felt before?? I have loved watching you and Eric love Cohen. It is even more amazing to see Cohen LOVE yall!! HE calms down in YOUR arms and I just love seeing that bond between the three of you. Hopefull we won't wait a week to see yall you.court

Leslie said...

Hi! I stumbled across your blog and have checked back from time to time. So glad to hear how well you are adjusting to life with a little one. Children truly are a blessing from the Lord! We have two biological children and are in the process of domestic adoption. My husband and I are so excited about this and the opportunity we will have! Your post was well written and it's true how Earthly adoption is a picture of how God has adopted us into His family. Many blessings for your family!

Anonymous said...

five ounces....5 OUNCES!!!

Bring the big boy over to ole Superman...I will see that he gets a good meal, little ice cream, little cookies. :)

As you know...your Mom and I are, so, proud. So, so Blessed. And so, so waiting to see Mr. Cohen on the jumbotron at the Preds game.

:) Dad

"He upholds the cause of the oppressed...He sustains the fatherless and the widow" -psalm 146:7&9